Walking through What Seems Dead and Wasted By: White Dove in the series, "Conversations with Daddy" I wanted to change the world. Ever since I was a little child I dreamed of going to foreign lands, solving the problems of world hunger and clean water for at least one community. It didn't seem fair that […]
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By: White Dove The most incredible light and beauty is showcased within a shrowd of darkness. It's like a dance of Light, a grand choreography by a Master Cosmic Artist. In the early nights of my soul quest I slowly walk in deep awe and wonder through the vast canyon as dusk turns to twilight and as twilight deepens into a startlingly […]
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Plunging into the Heart of Love By: Susan Deborah Schiller I’m deep below the surface again, down under the threatening waves of anger, hurt, depression, and the seemingly endless stream of bad news. But it’s not my battle this time around. I’m here with a sister plunging below the surface to find the heart of love. I know she’s going […]
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Crossing Over By: White Dove What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? / The world would split open." – Poet Muriel Rukeyser Speaking out has become a cure for many women who have silenced their voices due to a patriarchal church "authority" that has devalued our role across the board, […]
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Renewal by Design By: White Dove Renewal, for me, happens when I enter the unknown. For me, it’s “renewal by design” as I intentionally trade the safe route for the unknown. One early spring-like day, I was on my first “dot-dot-dot” road, which means sometimes there’s a path and sometimes not. The map uses dots to warn you the road will be […]
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Finding Beauty in the Dark Places By: White Dove I remember the day my husband abandoned me alongside the road in a desert, and it felt like a grenade had exploded in my abdomen. The pain cut from my neck to my belly, both physically and emotionally, ripping my gut wide open, even taking my voice away. […]
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Create Your Own Jail Break By: Susan Deborah Schiller Standing up to Sociopaths – A Collection of Essays Telling your story is important, on many levels. First, for your own freedom. The second is because it lights up the darkness around you. The third is that your story becomes a portal for Heaven to invade the darkness on […]
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To Stand in the Shock Waves and Shine By: White Dove Photo Source “I’m grooming you to grin in the face of disaster,” I heard Papa God say as I was listening in prayer one day. You see, part of my family legacy is to worry. I tend to worry about things as tenaciously as […]
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From Widow Maker to Dream Maker By: Deborah White Dove I had to identify my adversary: The Widow Maker. The Widow Maker stalked me, instigating a trio of negative forces to accompany me, throughout my life: Betrayal, Rejection, and Abandonment. Under the Widow Maker's tutlege, the trio of bandits made sure each time I reached […]
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Beauty in Adversity Part 2 of "I Will Follow You" in the series, "Letters to Readers and Love from Papa" "Where you lead me, I will follow," I responded, my feet bloody and my body bruised. It was the Valley of the Shadow of Death – the shadowlands. The winds of change are merciless and I'm falling down. […]
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"You need intensive care. Why don't you go lay on a beach and listen to the waves!" said caring church members who had been watching me slip away into the fog of PTSD symptoms. Chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, and a host of other diseases plague victims of abuse, like flies on a carcass. It's a form of […]
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YOU ARE A WARRIOR PRINCESS! You are a warrior like no other! You have been lied about, lied to, hit, kicked, stolen from, mistreated, been the brunt of anger, but yet you love! You are a woman that seeks help for your children and works hard to give your family the best! You are on call 24/7. […]
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You Are Not Too Much By: Susan Schiller Photo Source, used wtih permission: Epiphany Art Studio (Beth Morey, artist) I love to hear your voice, sweet one. You are not too much. You will never be too much. You're not alone. This battle is not yours to fight; it's Mine. Don't hold back your story. […]
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An Encounter at God's Beauty Spa By: Susan Deborah Schiller What if the abuse you've endured serves to make you bigger, better, and more beautiful? What if what scares you turns into your greatest source of blessing? What if the ugliest things you've seen and heard are being used to make you more beautiful? What if the weapon […]
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Duplicity – Living a Double Life By: White Dove My husband, a church leader also, was a pathological liar. But what was I? I was lying every day, every time I smiled. Every time I taught in church. I lied every time I assured people I loved my husband and my husband loved me. I […]
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Tangled in the Tares By: Susan Deborah schiller In the series, "Love from Papa" Don't worry about scary beasts with horns carrying pitchforks – that's not true evil. The most hideous evil in the world is dressed up to look like a nice, perfect Christian. In fact, the Christian abuser is the worst kind. Lucifer, dressed in a cloak of Light. What […]
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By: Susan Deborah Schiller in the series "Create Your World" Have you ever felt like you were constantly in a state of reacting to what is happening around you? Shari, a reader, shared the following story with me: "I feel dead. It started 10-years ago and it's only gotten worse. The doctors gave me an EEG […]
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Reclaiming Your Joy By: Susan Deborah Schiller A sure clue that your identity has been stolen is when you lose your joy in life. You end up in the routine of chores and responsibilies but your own needs are often neglected. You support others while letting your own dreams die. For years, I woke up […]
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The King's Bride By: Susan Deborah Schiller Many women, much like holocaust survivors, ask me the same question, after having lost everything to their absuer: What is ahead of us as we are so close to retirement? We are widows, having lost both husbands and church. We fell through the cracks of institutional Christianity. We are […]
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The Most Beautiful People are Formed by Trials By: Susan Deborah Schiller When he peers at me from the pillow next to mine, his merry blue eyes melt me from the inside out – all the icy trials, the numbed fingers of pain that claw and clutch at the last vestiges of my faith, my integrity, and my identity let go. […]
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