This is where I share my "hard" story… By: Susan Deborah Schiller Charismatic, charming, and good-looking, he was a lovable guy… church deacon, business owner, a friendly neighbor, and a man always ready to lend a helping hand. No one believed what was happening behind closed doors. I had no one to turn to but […]
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On the day I laid it all down – my ministry, my job, my life… God said to me "From this day on, I will bless you." (Haggai 2:19) Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress; … an object of dread to my closest friends— those who see me on the street flee […]
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Rak Chazak! Our War Cry! By: Susan Schiller Have you ever felt like your soul was under heavy fire for intense periods of your life? Times as intense as any military battle, maybe more intense… That's when we most need the war cry: "Rak Chazak!" Throughout my life I've had dreams that have helped me to […]
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The Accidental Tourist: A Parable By: Susan Deborah Schiller "You've been living as a tourist in the Kingdom of God," said the voice I've learned to trust as my Father God's. It was a dream, but full of truth, what I call a "dream parable". Like an ordinary child, I argued back, "Oh no, that's not […]
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What About Forgiveness? By: Susan Deborah Schiller Jesus commanded us to forgive each other, even up to 70 x 7 times, which means "unlimited grace". At the cross, with his dying breath, he prayed, "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do." In Light of His example, what are we to think, when […]
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My Three Healers: Nature, Creativity, and Writing My Story By: Susan Deborah Schiller Creativity is the best therapy, for me. Soaking in nature, walking barefoot. I make it my daily practice, as often as I can, anyway! Beauty is God, and God is Beauty. Love is God, and God is Love. Truth is God, and God is Truth. […]
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When A Victim Speaks Up, is it "Airing Dirty Laundry" or Exposing Evil? By: Susan Deborah Schiller The only thing harder than living with a narcissist or sociopath is leaving one. Here's the trap: When the true victim dares speak up, usually after years of silence, she is told not to "air dirty laundry" – and she […]
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She Flew By: Susan Deborah Schiller Why have I attracted sociopaths everywhere I go? What causes them to be drawn to me? So many times I've heard it's because I'm "too nice," "too trusting," and "suffering from low self-esteem". Over a period of 14 years I have studied sociopaths, up close and personal. I have […]
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Name Your Adversary: Your Core Identity is at Stake By: Deborah White Dove While there are voices who tell victims to "be nice, don't mention names, and only talk about your issues and problems, not his," I now recognize those voices as siren calls luring me BACK to silence, back to the same victim mentality […]
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The Greatest Gifts of God are Yours And that includes a home, a job, and "daily bread" By: Susan Deborah Schiller Together, we're pushing through something hugely dark – and it's moving. We're pushing it out of our own hearts and homes, first. Dear heart, your faith, hope, and love are piercingly beautiful! Your fierce […]
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His Plan: Abundance, not Scarcity By: Susan Deborah Schiller A Five Minute Friday Writing Exercise (Info to join us is below!) The sparrows in my backyard are a joyful flock, and never appear to mind when the blue jay chases them back to their fence post, or when the blackbirds gobble up the best seeds […]
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Knowing Your Enemy Matters By: Susan Deborah Schiller I was scared, depressed, and ready to give up. Middle of the night interrogations, gaslighting, and more made my home like a prisoner of war camp. No one saw what was happening, for it was all behind the doors of a "successful ministry" led by a popular […]
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Step into the Light By: Susan Deborah Schiller Stepping into the Light is scary, because for many survivors of sociopathic abuse it means leaving material security. Even losing everything…. job, ministry, family and friends… it's a grieving that goes deeper than the death of a loved one. It's easier to find closure in the death […]
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Five Big Questions to Flesh our Your Stories By: Susan Deborah Schiller I have been in the company of great women this week. Each of these women has told me stories of triumphs over adversity in their lives, of lessons it has taken them a lifetime to learn, and it inspired everyone at the table. […]
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Psalms 61:2 From the end of the earth I will cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. ~~~ From my collection of Wisdom Words that have helped me to survive. ~~~ Source: ft111.com – I am on Marsha Burn's mail list – and God's […]
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It was the 6th day of a week long water-only fast and I hadn't heard anything from God. The fast seemed useless, so I ate a small meal. Just a soda cracker, but even with the first bite a small voice rose up from inside saying, "No! God has something for you! Don't quit." On the […]
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