Thorns
By: Susan Deborah Schiller
Tears.
Bending in pain, I sink to the ground.
Parched. Hungry. Alone. Afraid.
Blood, sweat and tears.
Don't look back!
Agony.
Father, I didn't choose this.
I thought if I was good, obedient, and kind,
bad things wouldn't happen.
But it is not so.
Whipped, scourged, beaten, and yanked down.
I'm afraid I won't get up again.
I look back.
Did I make a mistake?
Father, where are you now?
Help! I can't see your face!
* * * * * * *
"Look up ahead. Follow the Light.
I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life."
I see you now.
My beloved!
"You've captured my heart.
Do you still wish to follow me now?"
I look up.
His face, I see.
He is all I want, all I need.
I can stand.
I will follow.
I will climb.
I will finish this mission.
Love is always crucified. Sometimes the pain is beyond description, like thorns tearing into our flesh. But if we keep our heart open, we are following Him. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Don't ever think you are alone. Don't ever give up!
Your wounds are windows for the glory of God. There are two mercies for every woe!
Sometimes the pain is prolonged because we fight the torture, we fight the dying… perhaps God is saying, "Hurry up and die!" There is life on the other side! Abundant life! (And I don't mean physical death, of course!)
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With all my love,
Sue
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"Wounds are windows for the glory of God."
That is so perfect. I'm learning this truth more every day.
The way you speak of thorns reminds me of the "Hinds Feet on High Places" allegory, and the thorn of love that is planted into the heart of Much-Afraid…. it takes a long time and many hard miles, but eventually that thorn blossoms into beauty within her. Have you read the book?
Oh Rebekah – thank you!
I read “Hind’s Feet in High Places” many, many years ago and your comment makes me want to read it again. Yes, God uses everything in our lives and turns even the ashes into beauty, thorns become roses…. oh yes, how merciful and compassionate is our God!
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