In the Midst of Chaos is Opportunity By: White Dove Chaos poured out of the sky, down to earth, in the form of hideous monsters that took foot, running, as soon as they reached earth. Each had an assignment of terror and destruction; their targets already marked. I looked for the source of this chaos […]
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A Return to the Garden of Eden By: Susan Schiller. I discovered this lifestyle of intimacy with God and with each other as an ordinary mom putting her kids to bed at night. I loved our bedtime rituals of baths, stories, and singing our favorite songs, but to be honest, my second favorite time of […]
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You Are Not Too Much By: Susan Schiller Photo Source, used wtih permission: Epiphany Art Studio (Beth Morey, artist) I love to hear your voice, sweet one. You are not too much. You will never be too much. You're not alone. This battle is not yours to fight; it's Mine. Don't hold back your story. […]
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What is a Sociopath? By: Susan Deborah Schiller I was married to a sociopath for 30-years. My marriage counselors told me I was the most abused woman they had ever met. In the course of gaining my freedom I have listened to the life stories of survivors and of sociopaths. Like many other survivors, the information […]
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Curing the Sting of Betrayal: Caught in a Smear Campaign By: White Dove Living, working, or ministering with a sociopath will eventually result in a smear campaign launched against you. That's just how these things work, nearly every time. Even Jesus was betrayed by someone in his own team. If you can switch over from […]
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The Kaleidoscope Effect By: Deborah Whtie Dove “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a […]
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At a Native American Powwow Clowns and Laughter Change the Atmosphere! By: White Dove I lived through a nightmare, but why? I was the ultimate "good girl," even a "goody two-shoes," as someone once named me. It took a long time for me to understand that "nice people" are usually the source of the greatest […]
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Flesh-eating Christians and the Pearl of Great Price By: Susan Deborah Schiller From the series, "Love from Papa" where I try to listen to God's heartbeat while asking Him the tough questions on my heart. God, why don't you stop this wicked person? Why do you see him torturing me day after day, and do […]
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Fully Alive, Fully Human, Fully Me By: Susan Deborah Schiller Can we pick and choose which parts of the life of Christ we want to manifest in our lives? Can we choose the miracles, walk on water, still storms, and heal people without the betrayal, abandonment, and rejection? In short, can we eliminate the stress […]
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Duplicity – Living a Double Life By: White Dove My husband, a church leader also, was a pathological liar. But what was I? I was lying every day, every time I smiled. Every time I taught in church. I lied every time I assured people I loved my husband and my husband loved me. I […]
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Sometimes Pain is a Gift By: Susan Deborah Schiller There was a time to break my silence and to tell my story of how I lived as a battered preacher's wife for 20 years in an abusive marriage, with more than 10 years of consequences in the aftermath of sociopathic abuse. And now is a time […]
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By: Susan Deborah Schiller in the series "Create Your World" Have you ever felt like you were constantly in a state of reacting to what is happening around you? Shari, a reader, shared the following story with me: "I feel dead. It started 10-years ago and it's only gotten worse. The doctors gave me an EEG […]
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The Lone Rancher Lessons By: Susan Schiller I looked out the window and said to myself, "Sue, you've got to get those horses out of the pasture and into the corral." My husband usually took care of that. He just saddled up and rounded those horses right into the corral. I was just in the […]
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Does A Sociopath Have A Heart By: Susan Deborah Schiller From the series, "Understanding Sociopaths & Abuse Tactics" A reader asked me, "does a sociopath have a heart"? In other words, is there ANY HOPE at all that they might change and become "real". I do know of extremely abusive people, even criminals, who have completely […]
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The King's Bride By: Susan Deborah Schiller Many women, much like holocaust survivors, ask me the same question, after having lost everything to their absuer: What is ahead of us as we are so close to retirement? We are widows, having lost both husbands and church. We fell through the cracks of institutional Christianity. We are […]
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I Lift Up My Eyes to the Hills By: Susan Deborah Schiller I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come? My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth.…Psalm 121:1 I believe I am God's beloved child, and that He's been close by my side every day […]
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Plunging into the Heart of the Plague By: Susan Deborah Schiller Today I finish driving about 2000 miles across country, from my childhood home town to my present home town. It's nice to visit the 1st World but 3rd World living is where I really love to be. There's a plague all around me, but the people […]
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Giving Up Everything… and Gaining Back More By: Susan Schiller From the series, "Love from Papa" It was one of those days when the world, like a carousel with its power plug pulled, slowly spriraled to a stop. My carefully folded bulletins fluttered to the seat next to me and I sank like a collapsed […]
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Homosexuals, Marriage, and the Kingdom By: Susan Deborah Schiller Rainbows are appearing all over social media. There seems to a wide gap between traditional Christianity and inclusive believers, and I hope this little dream parable may help to bridge the gap. It's how I reconciled embracing homosexuals into my culture. For me, it was like stepping […]
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Family is the backbone of society. By: Susan Deborah Schiller I have a dream of building a community, offline and online, where every member is loved to life through the sharing of our stories. Storytelling, in an atmosphere of unconditional acceptance, heals our bodies, minds, and souls. I envision within the whole, many smaller circles […]
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