Praying Psalm 119 – Customized for Abuse Survivors

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Fire in His Mouth

By: Susan Deborah Schiller

In a dream, I was escaping to freedom, leaping over barbed wire fences, and running evasively from prison guards. I had been the subject of psychological experimentation in a top secret government / university laboratory. In the dream, I had escaped many times, and each time I was able to get farther before being recaptured. On my final escape attempt – the one where I succeeded – I held my captors at bay with these words:

Stay away! Fire comes out of my mouth and I don't want to have to hurt you. Doubting my fire-breathing powers, my captors advanced upon me and as I opened my mouth to speak God's Word, fire raced out of my mouth and consumed my enemies. 

More enemies arrived, one after the other, and I knew my dilemma was how to sustain this stream of fire. I was good at short blasts, but could I learn to breathe out continuous blasts of fire? With the number of enemies chasing me, I needed to learn how to sustain this fire-breathing power. I believe it comes from praying God's Word, believing in His true nature, and in doing so, restoring my identity as a Royal Child of God – joint-heir with Christ Jesus.

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For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work; only he who now restrains will do so until he is taken out of the way. Then that lawless one will be revealed whom the Lord will slay with the breath of His mouth and bring to an end by the appearance of His coming; that is, the one whose coming is in accord with the activity of Satan, with all power and signs and false wonders,… – 2 Thessalonians 2:8

At the breath of God they perish; at the blast of his anger they are no more. – Job 4:9

but with righteousness he will judge the needy, with justice he will give decisions for the poor of the earth. He will strike the earth with the rod of his mouth; with the breath of his lips he will slay the wicked. – Isaiah 11:4

I love it when God gives me Scriptures that go along with my dreams – it's like a Daddy / Daughter game and I so much enjoy His presence! I've learned from experience, that crafting prayers using God's promises and Word that the enemy backs off, and curses are turned into blessings.

Praying with God's breath – Holy Fire – takes persistance, because sometimes your enemies just keep coming in, one after the other. Sometimes your victories come in stages. Don't ever quit!

ACTION POINT: Have you considered adding your prayers to your life story book? What has been the result of those prayers? Can you sketch out one story you can add to your memoir today?

You're blessed when you stay on course….

How can a young person live a clean life? By carefully reading the map of your Word.

I'm single-minded in pursuit of you; don't let me miss the road signs you've posted.

I'm feeling terrible – I couldn't feel worse! Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember?

When I told my story, you responded; train me well in your deep wisdom. Help me understand these things inside and out so I can ponder your miracle-wonders.

My sad life's dilapidated, a falling-down barn; build me up again by your Word. GOD, don't let me down! …

Deflect the harsh words of my critics – …

Still, I walk through a rain of derision because I live by your Word and counsel….

The wicked hemmed me in – there was no wat out – but not for a minute did I forget your plan for me. I get up in the middle of the night to thank you; your decisions are so right, so true – I can't wait till morning!

… The godless spread lies about me, but I focus my attention on what you are saying…

Let the fast-talking tricksters be exposed as frauds; they tried to sell me a bill of goods, but I kept my mind fixed on your counsel….

 

By your words I can see where I'm going; they throw a beam of light on my dark path. I've committed myself and I'll never turn back from living by your righteous order.

Everything's falling apart on me, God; put me together again with your Word. Festoon me with your finest sayings, God; teach me your holy rules…

I hate the two-faced, but I love your clear-cut revelation. You're my place of quiet retreat; I wait for your Word to renew me.

Get out of my life, evildoers, so I can keep my God's commands. 

Take my side as you promised; I'll live then for sure…

You reject earth's wicked as so much rubbish; therefore I lovingly embrace everything you say. I shiver in awe before you; your decisions leave me speechless with reverence.

Every word you give me is a miracle word – how could I help but obey? Break open your words, let the light shine out, let ordinary people see the meaning…

Rescue me from the grip of bad men and women so I can live life your way. Smile on me, your servant; teach me the right way to live.

I cry rivers of tears because nobody's living by your book!

… My rivals nearly did me in, they persistently ignored your commandments. Your promise has been tested through and through, and I, your servant, love it dearly…

Even though troubles came down on me hard, your commands always gave me delight. 

The way you tell me to live is always right, help me to understand it so I can live to the fullest.

Take a good look at my trouble, and help me — I haven't forgotten your revelation. Take my side and get me out of this; give me back my life, just as you promised.

Your words all add up to the sum total: Truth. Your righteous decisions are eternal.

I've been slandered unmercifully by the politicians, but my awe at your words keeps me stable. I'm ecstatic over what you say, like the one who strikes it rich.

I hate lies – can't stand them! – but I love what you have revealed.

Seven times each day I stop and shout praises for the way you keep everything running right….

I'm homesick, God, for your salvation; I love it when you show yourself! Invigorate my soul so I can praise you well, use your decrees to put iron in my soul.

And should I wander off like a lost sheep – seek me! I'll recognize the sound of your voice.

Psalm 119 The Message (MSG)

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David, author of this Psalm that celebrates the breath of God – His fiery Word – learned obedience through what he suffered at the murderous hands of King Saul. Jesus, likewise, learned obedience through what he suffered. I look at suffering differently today than I used to. The suffering has taught me to relentlessly – even when it looks foolish – trust in God.

I believe that makes God look Good, even though I may seem a fool. And so I share with you my fire-breathing practices!

 

 

Susan Schiller knows how it feels to lose everything: marriage and family, church and reputation, finances and businesses, and more. Susan's upcoming, interactive memoir, "On the Way Home," tells the story of how she came to be known as "the most abused woman" her counselors had yet met and how she learned to navigate her way out of hell to a rich and satisfying life. In her lifetime, Susan has served in duties ranging from home school mom – to pastor –  to full-time deliverance minister – and to Midwest regional prayer coordinator for a large international ministry. These days you can usually find Susan soaking in her favorite hot springs pool, reading a book (or several), blogging, baking bread, or hanging out with her family and friends. You can pre-order a free copy of Susan's upcoming book, "On the Way Home" by registering here.

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