Making a Come Back after a Free Fall
By: White Dove
The daughter of a pilot I earned my student pilot's license at age 16. One Saturday my scary lesson was how to stall a plane in mid-air, intentionally, so that the plane takes a nose dive, spinning and falling to the earth, faster and faster…. until you re-start the engine, which is not a simple task, given the gravitational pull and the need to take a precise series of steps in the correct order!
I feel like this is what I've done with my career/income…. I'm in free fall. Taking the steps to restart the engine. Hopefully quick enough, because otherwise it's gonna be ugly.
There is that moment, though, when the engine kicks in and the nose of the plane rises…. and you can just feel so good after that. Until your instructor says, "AGAIN!" and oh my…. and then again, and again, and again. Until your face is so green and he hands you a brown paper bag….
Maybe that is God, right now…. handing me a bag and saying, "Arise, daughter of God, and FLY!"
… Because He knows it's all about His Grace and not my abilities.
There comes a time when we all must face the outer limits of our space ship, this ship we call our physical life which houses our immortal soul on this adventure of Life on Planet Earth.
So I'm taking it to the edge, facing certain economic disaster if I don't succeed in restarting the financial engine and FLY!
I gave my all, and that means all… to help children be safe from molestors. I have no regrets.
This is where I want to be, right here, facing my final test before graduation. It's the School of Grace.
- Grace is the adversity that serves as our updraft. Grace is the confidence of our Instructor who sits in the co-pilot's chair during this nose dive. Grace is the puke bag, because it's the scariest roller coaster ride of your life!
- Grace… is when you discover you're not really the pilot, after all.
- Grace… is when the true Pilot emerges while your head is in the puke bag.
- Grace… is when you realize the true Pilot is this part of you you've been dying to see, all along. But you thought it was your job to master, to conquer, to defeat, to struggle, to win, to do and do again and again.
- Grace… is mainly learned in the free fall stages of life.
The free fall is where I usually navigate away. My navigation system prefers the smooth and peaceful way, whether roadway or skyway.
But Grace is not the same as safety. Grace is not needed in times of peace. Grace is needed every day, because life on this planet is heavy. Every day we deal with jealousies, complaints, whiners, and people who are just plain mean and ill-tempered. We find these same irritations in ourselves.
We've been duped into believing in Scarcity and Lack, and that if someone gets something good there is less good available for us. We fall into the role of victims. We fall from Grace.
I am falling right now, to be honest. I've avoided this test all of my life.
- Will Grace be sufficient for me, if I obey God by writing my book?
- Will Grace be sufficient for me if I choose to start a business that honors my calling instead of working at a typical job?
- Will Grace be sufficient for me? Am I good enough? Do I deserve Grace?
Most of us have a deep core belief that puts us on autopilot into circles of ever increasing darkness. Those beliefs are usually something like "I'm not good enough," or "I'm a bad person". These deep internal beliefs set a pattern that magnetically attracts similar lies until we are caught in a web of limiting beliefs.
The Truth is what sets us free, and the Truth is that you and I are Good. We are God's creation and all that He created is Good. We live in the land of Grace, always and forever, no matter what, because that's how the Universe works…. it's all based on unconditional Love.
My desperate free fall is intentional. My plane did not suddenly decided to crash to earth. I stalled it. I knew the real free fall is a necessary correction to a disobedience which would have led to a life unlived, holding many regrets.
I'm working hard, finishing my book, because it's what God last told me to do (nearly 10 years ago). I'm starting a business which honors His calling and purpose for my life.
I'm leaving "normal" behind, once again. It's the only safe way to live. It's Grace.
Nothing but Grace…
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With love,
White Dove
Hi, I’m White Dove. Yes, it’s my pen name, and it was given to me by a blind man who shyly whispered it to me in a Divine encounter. Yes, it’s my real picture… just an ordinary selfie.
I live with my family in the mountains, surrounded by ancient forests, pure streams, and mighty rivers… but I also travel quite a bit.
My kingdom career is a Heart Scribe. I love to write from God’s heart and have been recording His living Word for the past three decades. It’s brought me so much beauty, joy, peace, and happiness!
I love to inspire trauma survivors to write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into the future. We dip our pens in blood and write the pain away… as God has shown me how to do, in the company of supportive friends and family. We are writing ourselves into a better world, beginning with discovering our own original design recorded in the DNA of our soul, and it’s the most exciting place to be!
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SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS
Ask for wisdom and move in the direction of solving difficult problems. It could be a protracted process, so set yourself to do what it takes for as long as it takes to achieve breakthrough. You have put off taking necessary action, but the time has come for resolution. Do not be afraid. I am with you, says the Lord. Psalm 31:24 Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.