Diving into the Unknown: Is it Safe?
By: White Dove
I don't trust my own thinking anymore, but I am learning to trust myself. My deeper self, hidden deep in the core of my being.
That part of me that exists beyond Time and Space. My soul.
In my dreams that part of myself leaps off high cliffs, plunges over waterfalls, and even dares to fly! Then I wake up, to my smaller self.
My smaller self, the one who pays the bills, drives to work, cooks meals… is quite responsible and is adverse to risk. Who is this person, this part of myself, who dares to believe she can do the impossible?
I'm only beginning to make friends with her on this vision quest. Oh yes, I knew about her. She wrote a good part of this blog.
But each time I closed my computer, went to work, and took my place in the daily grind I began to forget her. Her voice grew distant. She nearly disappeared from my sight.
Yesterday, I was listening to an artist tell the story behind one of his greatest paintings. The painting came to him in the midst of an anxiety attack, because "sometimes you have to go right to the edge," he said, to get your breakthrough.
In our dance with destiny we each come to edge.
We can go no farther without taking a leap into the deep.
For me, it's time to take another leap!
In my dreams I plunge into tiny pools hundreds of feet below me. I leap off tall cliffs. I hurtle over waterfalls. I fly. I win sword fights. I rescue kids. My true self is trying to coach me to do the same in my "real" life.
I have done a lot of "risky" things in my life. Some pretty big exploits, actually. But somehow, lately, I've pulled off to the side of the road. I got comfortable living small. I had to take another leap.
This past summer I quit my job, my only source of income, and launched out into the unknown, in my little Jeep Renegade. I'm on a vision quest, to narrow the gap between my "real" life and this part of me that has consistently shown up in my dreams as my true self. I don't want to live two different lives.
This morning a dear friend forwarded this to me, originating from Megan Macedo:
… You have to make the decision to step back into the arena again and again. And it's a frightening thing every time.
Too many of us let months and years pass between our moments in the arena. Because that's where acute failure can happen. But it's also the only place greatness can occur. It's the place your soul longs to be. It's where you are drawn to and what you were made for.
Common wisdom says failure is our greatest fear, but I think what we're most afraid of is the scale of our own ambition...
Real progress doesn't come in incremental improvements, it comes in leaps. It comes when you do something drastically differently. When you step into the arena and do something new. Like nothing you've ever done before. On a scale you've never done it on before.
What do you dream of at night? How is your true self knocking on the door of your heart? What are you called to do? What invention, what idea, what dream, what adventure is beckoning you? I'd really like to know!
The world needs YOU to be FULLY ALIVE and operating in your divine destiny, not as a victim or simply a survivor but in your Original Design, which is your SUPER POWER!
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With all my love,
White Dove
Hi, I'm White Dove. Yes, it's my pen name, and it was given to me by a blind man who shyly whispered it to me in a Divine encounter. Yes, it's my real picture… just an ordinary selfie.
I live with my family in the mountains, surrounded by ancient forests, pure streams, and mighty rivers… but I also travel quite a bit.
My kingdom career is a Heart Scribe. I love to write from God's heart and have been recording His living Word for the past three decades. It's brought me so much beauty, joy, peace, and happiness!
I love to inspire trauma survivors to write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into the future. We dip our pens in blood and write the pain away… as God has shown me how to do, in the company of supportive friends and family. We are writing ourselves into a better world, beginning with discovering our own original design recorded in the DNA of our soul, and it's the most exciting place to be!
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