Freedom
"Leave me here freely all alone
In cell where never sunlight shone
should no one ever speak to me
This golden silence makes me free."
Part of a poem written by a prisoner at Dachau concentration camp
I used to dream every night about escaping concentration camps. Inwardly, a concentration camp is our psychological reality. It used to be my every day reality and it seemed my subconscious mind was trying to give me clues how to get free.
When you are married to a sociopath, even if outwardly you appear to be the "ideal couple" as my husband and I were once perceived by the world, inwardly you are isolated, imprisoned, and voiceless. It's a mental concentration camp.
There is a way of escape, I promise! When you get to the point where everything of evil is turned around into Good, which always happens sooner or later for God's beloved child (you!), you will feel gratitude for the honor of entering into His suffering for this broken world. But in the meantime, I need to keep this fear at bay, out of my way.
I am begining to see my enemies differently. Injustice no longer stings, smear campaigns, gaslighting, and the dark works of evil no longer feel like they are torturing me. I can't control what other people choose to be and do. All I can control is how I respond. My choice is to respond in a way that makes me less vulnerable, that helps me to avoid the path of evil people.
My freedom is not dependent on my situation, my abuser's change of heart, or anything else except my own choice to live as Abba's beloved daughter… gifted with everything I need to overcome every evil… and more, to rule in the midst of my enemies!
I will embrace the lonelieness, the isolation, and the exile. I embrace the suffering, for in doing so, it loses its power over me.
Most of our pain comes from fear – fear of lack, fear of not being loved and accepted, fear of poverty, fear of being alone, and so much more! Fear leads to shame, guilt, grief, and other negative emotions that rob you of life, that shackle you to a prison of desperation, despair, and depression. That's concentration camp living.
What I don't confront will not simply disappear. I am the catalyst for change in my own circumstances. Mostly, this means how I perceive my reality.
I have more power inside of me than I presently know or feel. The Risen Christ lives within me. This is my new reality. This is my new family legacy!
It doesn't feel like it all the time, yet. I still get scared. How can I survive in such a complex, unfriendly world when inside I am only a shell of who I once used to be. I'm traveling on a unique path that is mostly uphill, very narrow, and rocky. I'm bloody and exhausted!
I'm making it one day at a time. I don't know exactly how. All I know is there is daily manna, daily grace, and moment-by-moment glimpses of the Risen One who wants to live within me. Even when I felt too bloody, broken, and bruised to take one more step, I do it anyway – I plunge forward, stepping into the Light.
Once I take the step, I realize it was safe all along. Fear runs away when it's directly confronted with the Light. It's here and now that we live. Not in some future time when everything will somehow be better.
Today, you're life begins… so get up and dance. Especially if you don't feel like dancing… Seriously, there is so much liberty in dancing, even if all you can do is tap your toes or hum…
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White Dove
Hi, I’m White Dove. Yes, it’s my pen name, and it was given to me by a blind man who shyly whispered it to me in a Divine encounter. Yes, it’s my real picture… just an ordinary selfie.
I live with my family in the mountains, surrounded by ancient forests, pure streams, and mighty rivers… but I also travel quite a bit.
My kingdom career is a Heart Scribe. I love to write from God’s heart and have been recording His living Word for the past three decades. It’s brought me so much beauty, joy, peace, and happiness!
I love to inspire trauma survivors to write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into the future. We dip our pens in blood and write the pain away… as God has shown me how to do, in the company of supportive friends and family. We are writing ourselves into a better world, beginning with discovering our own original design recorded in the DNA of our soul, and it’s the most exciting place to be!
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Thank you for sharing your deepest self, these readings are encouraging and healing to me.
I'm so glad to meet you, Mari. In the sharing of our stories we share a love that overcomes all evil and empowers us to return to Love….. I would love to hear more of you story!
A friend sent this to me today – I do not know the source. If you know the author, please let me know so I can give credit!
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VINDICATION IN THE COURTS OF HEAVEN
I've been seeing a scene today where God showed me the courts of heaven, and all I kept seeing was a gavel smashing down on a table.
I could sense such a finality in its blow, like a "it is finished" statement, and I could feel the Father's heart in it, like a righteous anger with a sense of victory.
That hammer represented what he is doing right now for those who have been contending for a long time in many areas and had not seen the "finished work" in your situations.
That struggle in your mind over the past 7-8 years that almost took you out is FINISHED, God calls you triumphant over that spiritual torment and endless fight today. You will literally walk out from under its hold and influence.
That sickness and affliction that has towered over you, told you it's your master, making you a slave to its daily requirements, but the lord is calling you the healed today and every lie and infliction of the enemy is being exposed, and you will walk out WHOLE.
Many have felt like they have been living hopeless, defeated, directionless, living under a low ceiling, and now the lord says he is taking you to a place where your capacity, ability, and growth will be limitless. You won't have to continue life as if behind a screen as others live it.. HOPE is returning..
That hurt you carry, what they did to you, he sees and he has been crying with you, but he has wanted you to see how he feels towards you. You will feel his LOVE and closeness as he destroys all rejection and fear in your heart, and you will move on, never to be held back again..
Every injustice is being vindicated in your life, the Holy Spirit is raising his banner over you, the blood of Jesus has already redeemed you, and the Father is rejoicing over you.."
Freedom! How many years I prayed for freedom, and now, in the midst of one of the worst storms of my life, I find I am totally free! At peace when others would be in agony. Rejoicing when those around me are devastated. Truly God is in the liberation business!
Rejoicing isn’t only for good times, but for, all times… it’s one of the bookends of faith, God once whispered to me. Singing is the other bookend of faith. One day your family will catch on… you’ve opened the door for them. Keep shining!