Passion for God alone is the antidote to the spiritual viruses and cancers that have become epidemic in the Body of Christ. Good is called evil, and evil is called good. It begin with telling ourselves the Truth and waking up to Love.
Truth and Love walk hand-in-hand together. I’m only a toddler, learning to walk and talk with God. The articles below are written for my own good, primarily, as I faced the truth regarding cult-type churches and ministries that I not only was a part of, but helped to lead. I write with a heart of repentance, but I realize that the change in me becomes an unwelcome mirror to those who are still trapped in the deception.
My motive is to write my own experience, and to come to terms with the reality I once embraced as love and truth… but it was smoke and mirrors, a mirage. There is a beautiful side to evil, and to let it go hurts. Some of us are too afraid to let go, because our dearest friends are still walking on that path.
The lonely path of the wilderness taught me to be grateful for the pain, the losses, and the grief of dreams exposed as false good. Good is the enemy of the best. We are in a day and age where God is shaking all that can be shaken, and if you feel lost, bewildered, concerned, or as if you are the only one sensing that things are not quite right, you might enjoy the articles written below. Or you may hate what I have to say, and that’s okay, too.
I write because I love beauty and truth, and God’s asked me to share my experiences. To be silent is to risk being Evil’s accomplice.
Quest To See Beyond By: White Dove My eyes are in a state of wonder. The sky today is a deep cerulean blue; the sun is peeking from the towering bull pines and lodge poles, towering more than 50 feet tall. In the distance is a tree-lined mountain peak, usually snow-capped, but in August it’s finally all green. […]
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Finding Beauty in the Dark Places By: White Dove I remember the day my husband abandoned me alongside the road in a desert, and it felt like a grenade had exploded in my abdomen. The pain cut from my neck to my belly, both physically and emotionally, ripping my gut wide open, even taking my voice away. […]
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Only Extravagant People Find Provision In their Problems By: White Dove I went into the canyon last evening, to my singing place high up on the cliffs, in the middle of tall sage brush that protects me from being seen by traffic. The roaring river, so full of Spring run off from the snowy mountains, […]
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Your Real Treasure is Found After You've Lost Everything By: White Dove Our Father is the King of the whole universe. He created this earth to be our dwelling place. He made us lords and rulers, co-creators, and commanded us to build, to plan, to multiply, and to fill the earth! The earth was meant to […]
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His Eye is on the Sparrow By: White Dove The song, "His Eye is on the Sparrow," has been playing on the Spirit station of my mind. "Economic justice" is a phrase I've been running into a lot lately, and it's message is burrowing deep into my mind. Down beneath the layers of self-preservation. Who […]
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Beauty in Brokenness By: Susan Deborah Schiller Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress; … an object of dread to my closest friends— those who see me on the street flee from me. I am forgotten as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery… An excerpt from Psalm […]
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Naked and Unashamed By: White Dove I have decided to get naked. I removed all the outerwear that my culture told me would cover my shame. I don’t even know where the shame began, except it appeared when I was very little. It made me painfully shy. I knew in my heart I was “damaged […]
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Broken is the Beginning By: Susan Deborah Schiller "Enter through the Doorway of Hope," Daddy God once whispered to me. "The valley of troubles is the Gateway to Hope," my friend Kimberly said. "Broken is the beginning," author Glennon Dyle Melton is saying in this video. Many of us see our own brokenness as […]
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The Unmaking By: Susan Deborah Schiller How am I to interpret the meaning of a life lived in servitude to a sociopathic husband – a leader of our family and church? What happens when the devastation – emotional, economic, and neurological – forces us to reconsider what we want from life and what we don't want? […]
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The Awaking Bride – A Princess Warrior By: Susan Deborah Schiller In the "Dream Parables" Series I love having friends who see my broken mess and instead of being horrified, they see my cracks and gaps as places to lovingly fill with love. They make me better, for having been broken. My dad used to tell me, "Sue, if […]
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Surrendering to Rest By: Susan Deborah Schiller This week's prompt is "If you surrendered to ___ what would happen? Dwell in the possibilities. Allow yourself to dream." I am replacing the blank with the word "rest". What word would you use? I like to take a mental vacation, if only for a few minutes. In my imagination I'm […]
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Passion is Ignited when the Fight gets Personal By: Susan Deborah Schiller The worst attacks have been aimed at my identity, my inheritance, and my story. That's why I continually say the words, "Be you. Be free. Tell your story." Today I want to share how these trials can turn your greatest despair into a joyful life. […]
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Thorns By: Susan Deborah Schiller Tears. Bending in pain, I sink to the ground. Parched. Hungry. Alone. Afraid. Blood, sweat and tears. Don't look back! Agony. Father, I didn't choose this. I thought if I was good, obedient, and kind, bad things wouldn't happen. But it is not so. Whipped, scourged, beaten, and yanked down. I'm afraid I […]
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It was the 6th day of a week long water-only fast and I hadn't heard anything from God. The fast seemed useless, so I ate a small meal. Just a soda cracker, but even with the first bite a small voice rose up from inside saying, "No! God has something for you! Don't quit." On the […]
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The World is Changing By: Susan Deborah Schiller In the series, "Passion for God" The world is changing. The wind is blowing and the waves are rising higher and higher. What anchors your soul? Faith? Art? Science? What you've always believed to be true? Recently I watched the musical, Fiddler on the Roof. […]
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A Life Story Interview with Aurora By: Susan Deborah Schiller We all run into blocks in writing our memoir. When telling your story is too hard, it may help for someone to listen and write a few lines for you. Soon you're ready to tackle another chapter of your memoir. You know, it's usually in the hard stories where […]
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Blazing through the Challenges From the "Memoir Mondays" and "Parables" series By: Susan Deborah Schiller Through this chapter of my memoir, I want to hand you four keys that will unlock your destiny, causing you to to blaze through any challenge. In May 2009, I was on the edge of an abyss that nearly engulfed my life. My husband […]
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Piercing the Darkness By: Susan Deborah Schiller Straight out front, I don't normally post about pastors who abuse women and children in their congregation, even though a large part of why I'm here at Team Family Online is to rescue and restore those who have been spiritually hurt in their churches, especially by predators in […]
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Making Jesus Famous By: Susan Deborah Schiller Photo Credit: Jesus Daily In the "Passion for God" series. "Welcome to the team!" read the subject line of an email from an international ministry. What is this? I called to my husband, "Did you volunteer us for something?" Yep. So I opened the email and inside was a database […]
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Pursuing the Power: Signs, Wonders, and Miracles By: Susan Deborah Schiller Second in a series called "Passion for God" Miracles really do happen. I've seen many people instantly healed. I was taught that sickness is from the devil and that it's always God's will to heal our minds, bodies, and hearts. Having gone through systematized training, learning […]
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