Hope for Survivors are pages from my journals, prayers, and meditations on the value of suffering in the Christian life. Most of these were written during my escape to freedom, not only from sociopathic abuse but from spiritual abuse in church.
I hope they encourage you as you walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Death!
Beauty in Brokenness By: Susan Deborah Schiller Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress; … an object of dread to my closest friends— those who see me on the street flee from me. I am forgotten as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery… An excerpt from Psalm […]
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A Page from My Journal Susan Deborah Schiller Divorce is a torrent of treacherous waters, threatinging to tip me into a sea of despair. A smear campaign (again???) tempts me to doubt myself, to blame myself, and to miss hearing God's voice. So I am here writing…. waiting…. Most of all, I want to hear […]
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What Love Looks Like…. Susan Deborah Schiller My journal, January 4, 2016 Father, my soul is deeply grateful and satisfied. I am wealthy in good relationships. To be loved and to love is the meaning and essence of real life… abundant life. Yeshua showed us how to live a Kingdom lifestyle, by choosing love every […]
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The Avengers are Arising By: Susan Deborah Schiller With millions of Christians around the world, who have been given all authority on earth and a commission to "go" and set things right on earth, where are the real avengers? Why is the earth still burdened with inequality, injustice, and pain? Why are we so prone to […]
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You're Never Alone, Never Abandoned, Never Forgotten By: Susan Deborah Schiller I awakened from a dream in which I learned a valuable lesson from my mentor, Michael Roads (who in waking life teaches the main message of "choosing love"). In the dream, Michael was giving me a practical hands-on test – one that I had […]
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My Manifesto for a Life Beyond Fear By: White Dove My intention is to life a love-based life beyond fear – to choose Love every moment of every day. In this life, my love of nature – mountains, rivers, hills, animals, solitude and quiet – are clearly revealed. My Father's love is clearly visible in my life […]
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This Astonishing Light By: Susan Deborah Schiller There is a genocide happening today. It's a mass murder of dreams, visions, and the destinies of people who, like I once did, feel "dead" inside. It's like they are moving through life doing all the right things, but missing out on what they are created to be and […]
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What if you could have the time of your life, even in the midst of a great trial? There is one earth creature that is forever joyful, and that is the dolphin. I've been studying dolphins, you see, because God led me to heart healing through them. Dolphins are leading me into a healing that […]
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Growing in God's Favor By: Susan Deborah Schiller In between dreaming and waking, in a vision I was deep within the enemy's camp and I overhead Satan talking about God's downtrodden children. He was saying, "It's because they don't believe in the FAVOR of their God anymore – that He longs to deliver them. They just […]
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Today I am working on an exercise in meeting my Thriver. I imagine a bridge and on the other side is the new version of myself, the new person I am becoming. I ask her questions and get to know her better… and I ask her to help me transition from fear-based living to a […]
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Is it hard to wake up in the morning? Does your loss define you in such a way that you don't know if you have what it takes to survive, let alone thrive? To truly see and know the Truth that sets us free, we must get up higher, above those clouds that trauma brings. These […]
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Cowgirl Up! By: White Dove A little part of my own memoir… My husband and I were invited to manage a ranch, that they wanted turned into a House of Prayer. Stepping foot into the sprawling, 5,000 sq ft barn-turned-into-a-house, we took the bull by its horns and began cleaning and decorating the newly constructed […]
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Out of the heart the mouth speaks, and what we speak we create. By: Susan Deborah Schiller How you tell your story creates your world. It's your story, and if you're not where you want to be in life, at any given time you can say, "This may be my story, up to now, but […]
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You're Never Alone By: Kimberly Dimick This is a time dear heart, I sense that the smallest, even insignificant whispers of the Lord will be reminders to you that you are not alone. It is true that when life is chaotic and every evil thing is unleashed against us that the noise of our enemy […]
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What Would You Do if You Had No Barriers? By: Susan Deborah Schiller The most 'impossible' challenges require dropping down to a child's level, for that's the only way to understand Kingdom solutions. I've found the best way to be childlike is to hang around children and do kid-stuff together. This past month my granddaughter and […]
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In the Midst of Chaos is Opportunity By: White Dove Chaos poured out of the sky, down to earth, in the form of hideous monsters that took foot, running, as soon as they reached earth. Each had an assignment of terror and destruction; their targets already marked. I looked for the source of this chaos […]
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A Whisper in the Darkness Becomes A Ray of Hope By: Susan Deborah Schiller There are no words to describe the spiritual rape and slow death of a soul in the onslaught of sociopathic abuse. Among fellow survivors we find empathy and compassion, but few solid answers. An encounter with true evil means you will […]
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From my Summer 2009 journal… a look at life beyond fear: In a dream I saw a young girl, about 7 years old, visiting our church, and in a very simple childlike manner showing us how to live in a continual state of joy, peace, and fullness of every kind of blessing. "I died with Christ. That means […]
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January 18, 2016 – I'm back full-circle to the place where God gently scraped the scales of religion off my blind eyes… a high plains desert in Wyoming. In April 2011, when I first landed in this small town, I knew no one here. So God sent Secret Heroes to my rescue. My truck was hopelessly […]
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Joy By: Deborah White Dove Joy… is not what I felt when a neurosurgeon diagnosed my husband with a severe spinal cord injury. The year was 2003 and we were on a multi-million dollar hazmat project. We were a small team of inexperienced operators and my husband, the supervisor, was the only one with real experience. […]
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